Living in low consciousness is really a bummer and the world is out of control, lost. Our news is the most horrific dream playing a reel 24-7 of everything fucked up six ways to Sunday. Is it to control us? Is it to put fear in is? There are good things happening in the world too. Is there worse more than good? It seems that way, looking at our t.v., our computer screens, our phones. We also personally live through traumas and hell. It is why I seek higher consciousness living and reality. It is a path to seek reality beyond earthly circumstances and earthly desires. Our society has messages that are toxic to us, especially females. Goals to live in extreme materialism despite consequences.
The light is desperate to live. It is our perspectives. Even in the darkest hours and times, what gets us through that moment? If it’s a destination, what happens when you get there? The light show us the wrongs of the world to fix or have resolution, not to fear and not want to leave our homes or change. The light does not want us to be separate. We need each other but light and dark have conflict. We are in these times.
Don’t you want to be okay no matter what? I’ve had plenty and I have had scarcity. I will tell you I feel apathetic in plenty. When the E light is on and nothing is in sight of changing that, I am not apathetic. It is through my E light being on, magic has happened in my life and provision has come from nowhere. I seek desperately when I am on E. To me we are aware of the magic when we are on E. We are aware or awake to see this perspective. There is absolute magic in optimism. It’s the law of attraction. If you think you will be fucked or you think you will be great, you are right. The beginning of all truth lives in gratitude. How can you be grateful if you haven’t suffered?
We watch on social media the lives of actors who are super successful, who came from the depths of hell in their upbringing. How does this happen over and over? Optimism and the inner strength to endure challenges in this life. When we struggle we teach ourselves inner strength. We rise internally. We understand circumstances is just that. Everything is always changing including our circumstances. Personally the worst thing I have ever done is stay in a toxic marriage to a man with narcissistic personality disorder because I was so scared of change for 18 years. 90% of people would rather die than make changes. It turned out to be the most freeing experience and it taught me a lot about my father who took his life 4 years ago, and what his example was to me as a man, it gave me understanding to why I sought such men.
When we decide we are worth more we change what we will put up with. When we decide that the person or job we are involved with is hurting us worse than we hurt ourselves, we change. It takes courage to give up security of material wealth built in that relationship. It is why many don’t leave. To me money is not what I am looking for. It is a means I have to have to survive but I live for the passion burning inside me. Like writing, hair coloring, painting. I am going to makeup school in the fall to learn body painting. I have done hair 26 years because it’s not a job to me, it’s an outlet of creativity, making people feel beautiful and it’s being around humans I have formed deep relationships with over years.
Worshiping money is the worst lie on earth currently. Money comes from passions being lived and lucrative creative ideas flowing out of passions. It’s about finding a job for the long haul, kind of like dating. Saying no when the intuition is screaming out to be heard. We don’t always see why something is wrong but we have built in protection with intuition. It’s an unseen energy reaction to the person or environment. Yep, we might have to budget some ramen meals because of a choice to live this way but long term it won’t be that way. When we wait for the right job or person it’s worth it in the long run. We don’t sacrifice our peace, identity, and self respect, self love.
Most spiritual awakenings happen to people out of trauma, desperation, drug use that alters the conscious and trials in this life. It’s the greatest thing that’s happened to me because I know through each trial I am learning something I need to learn. It’s not a punishment it’s a lesson. That is a perspective. It’s a perspective of optimism and being deliberate in my intentions moving forward in what I am really seeking. It’s a trust of being authentic with my higher self. I also know living in ego sucks. Spiritual awakenings are really about loss of ego. Operating out of motives that don’t serve self or others. It becomes about spreading the good news that there is a path to higher self, subconscious truths and passions that are lived out, without fear of provision even when it doesn’t look that way. It’s a different dimension of living. It’s here in real time. I know because I am personally on E and seeking like crazy knowing it’s going to come together, not just to support me financially but to fulfill me as a whole person. I know because I live it over and over and become deeper and deeper in love with seeking the truth and my higher self.