Did you ever say this to someone? My parents said this to me before bed often. This was way before I had knowledge of actual bedbugs being real.
This is not about bedbugs. I have insomnia. I fall asleep but I don’t stay asleep. This has been going on for four years.
Yesterday, I went to the doctor for this problem. It is not the first time. I have anxiety and I have a lot of tools that help me manage anxiety while in a conscious state. I work out daily and have changed my diet in attempt to help with this.
I have used several medications to help with this issue. The doctor put me on a new medication yesterday.
I didn’t wake up last night for the first time in months.
It is a great feeling to wake up and not feel hung over from tiredness. It usually takes me two hours to function in the morning and several cups of coffee. This is mostly mental tiredness. Like a haze, I have to break through.
The older I get I see my tendency to be genetically wired like my mom. In many ways I am like her. She has struggled with sleeping for a long time. She has been on sleeping pills for twenty years. She has always liked her pills and never questions her doctor about what she is taking and why.
I am different in that, I don’t want to be on medication forever. That is the frustration for me. I have tried everything natural. I force myself to physically be tired. I am in therapy to help with anxiety. But in the end I am back on medicine.
My hope is that if my body and mind get into a habit of not waking up during the night, I may be able to get off medication.
Anxiety has plagued my entire family. I wonder sometimes how long that genetic code has been passed down from my ancestors.
I believe that most issues people have are chemical. That is why there are so many addictions. Whatever poison you pick is giving you something you need. It may also give you problems but you are not crazy in your addiction.
Holistic doctors will tell you this: health affects your mental state as well as physical. Some people who are off balance with blood sugars can become institutionalized and told they are bi polar. It is a huge problem. If you only seek an answer to a symptom, you will never find the problem.
The American diet is so bad for you. People are starving to death in a land full of food. Anything processed is garbage for you. In my home when I shop I buy fruits, vegetables and fish or chicken and tons of beans. My husband buys processed foods. There is balance there and we have to live with each other.My kids are being taught both worlds.
Sometimes even in a healthy diet, your body is not able to break down what is being eaten. That is where addictions come in to aide this process. Every addiction is tied to a chemical deficiency. For years it was said that addiction is a gene. The new dms 5 now reports that addiction is across the board, you can be any age, gender to have addiction. If you were to be diagnosed with addiction it is done with how severe or mild that addiction affects your life, all persons have addiction.
Learning to eat a diet that supports even blood sugars is vital. Eating frequently, six times a day, and eating foods that don’t spike or lower blood sugars. It is a daunting task. We have been taught the three meals a day is where it is at. Most of what we have been taught about diet is wrong for maximum health.
There is knowledge and real life. The combination is tricky to find the balance. I have health insurance that only covers my doctor appointments. I know if I want to reach my ultimate health goals, I need to also bring in a holistic doctor. That is more money out of pocket I don’t have. It is truly the only way to find out what we are missing in our diet and finding the solution naturally.
For now sleep is imperative. I will continue with the knowledge I do have. I will take medicine. That will not be the end for me. When I do have the extra money it will be put to use finding someone in the holistic field to help find the answer to my broken chemistry.
I have been in therapy most of my life. I am beginning to realise that I may need to put that money towards my physical health. The tie to mental health I am starting to believe is finding the deficiency in our physical make-up.
Any thoughts on this subject?